The following is written by Peter Peut:
The ability to "heal" completely and embrace a past experience is governed by the size of the ego. The larger the ego, the less likely a healing can take place. The ego's job is to protect us from everything "out there". Two ways it does this are the Aggressive/Defensive mode and the "Poor Me" or Victim mode. Both are designed to keep us safe from whatever is "out there". The ego keeps two 'files' on any experience. First there is the actual experience, there may be pain, fear etc. This file is the small one. AFTER the experience the ego builds a huge file: fear, hate, revenge, self-hate, blame etc.. Any time the experience revisits, the ego can add more junk to file number two. Instead of healing it can get worse.
If the experience (small file) itself is healed, the large, ego manufactured, file ceases to exist.
So, how to cut the ego down to size, so the actual experience can be healed. You have the answers from your soul writing on God "make sure you go within" - go to source as part of a healing.
A human exists on this planet in two worlds.
The first world is "out there" - the domain of the ego.
The second world is the inner world - connection to soul.
You can still live your daily life connected to soul - even when cooking dinner, kids fighting, hubby drinking beer watching TV.
The strength of the ego is directly proportional to the time spent in the outer world compared to the time spent going within. There is no need to do anything to the ego. It just readjusts itself to where you are focused - inner or outer.
Peter emailed this to me after we had a discussion on this topic. I think he sums up nicely what we need to do to heal past hurts, suffering and trapped emotions. Rather than re-hashing the “story” and “drama” around the events that caused us pain, just get in there and connect with the original feeling and heal that. The more we can connect with our soul and feel the peace and connection to source – the less time we will spend empowering our ego and "our stories" and the easier it will be to heal past hurts.
If you have experienced past hurts (grief, abuse, breakups, humiliation, fear etc) and don’t necessarily want to dig up all the past “stories”and “drama”, I can help with a gentle but effective energy healing session (in person or by distance) which can help with this process. By connecting with your Soul we create a safe peaceful place to connect with the trapped emotion and release it.
Once we have completed our journey with our past, then the soul connection can become stronger and we can start living with soul guidance and experience the joy and peace we have all longed for. There is beauty in our past experiences - the soul connection will help you find that.
Around the middle of 2012 various circumstances led me to give up the room lease where I had been teaching Reiki for a few years. I decided to take a couple of months off and reassess what my next step would be. I felt very strongly that I needed to stop teaching Reiki and explore some new healing/spiritual teachings. After 2 month off, the bills at home were piling up and I was feeling the pressure to get back to my business and help it grow. I asked for guidance and was clearly directed to go “back to work”, no this didn’t mean my healing business but my previous job as a Medical Researcher.
I have a background in Science and was working in Medical Research for 13 years before my diagnosis of CFS. I had now been out of this industry for 6 ½ years and never thought I would go back, in fact it seemed a world away and very much a part of my past. This soul guidance didn’t make any logical sense. How was a medical research job going to help me grow my healing business? How could I manage to be in such a different environment to the natural healing one that had helped me so much? Even though it made no sense, the pull was so strong that I contacted my old boss and he did in fact have a part time casual position for me. I started straight away…
It has been 7 months now and I am still working part time at the hospital. What an interesting journey it has been. I understand first-hand how soul guidance can make no logical sense and yet be so profound and change the course of your life so succinctly that it just can’t be ignored. I can’t share all the details just yet on how my life is changing direction, but it has certainly helped my healing business in so many ways.
The first few weeks back in this job were terribly difficult. So many emotions came up to the surface. I was back in the environment where I was when my life fell apart due to the CFS. I was doing something I never thought I would physically be able to do again. My confidence grew as one by one I acknowledged the emotions and fears. Relieving the financial pressure was also a huge help. I was getting more insights and confidence with my healing work and what direction I wanted to go with my teachings. It certainly was helping my business!
I don’t know how much longer I will stay in this job, I am sure the message will come when it is time to move on – if at all, but the insights and opportunity to put to practical use all the spiritual skills I have developed have been invaluable. It has helped ground me as well. Sometimes it is hard to remember what life is like out in the “real world” when your life revolves around healing centres and love and light!! But my intuition and connections to soul are like a secret weapon for work stress. I understand even more now the importance of being connected to spirit.
I will keep you posted on how this turns out, but all I can say is that when that soul guidance comes to you, no matter how 'out there' or illogical it seems, it might just work out!
This is an article I wrote in 2011 which I feel is still relevant to many people who also see number sequences, so I want to share it here again:
The 11th November 2011(11/11/11) is very close. All around the world people are realising the significance of this date.
I believe it is an opportunity for us all to step up in vibration, positive thoughts and love in our hearts to help this planet and the inhabitants of it. In honour of this upcoming date I would like to share my 11:11 story.
From as early as I can remember I had a digital alarm clock next to my bed. Many nights I would wake up, look at the time and it would be 11:11. I could sense that this was a sign from the unseen world. This scared me. My child mind called it the “witching hour”and I would hide under my bed covers until the clocked changed. I was very scared of the unseen world that I could often sense and thought it was all evil.
The pattern of seeing 11:11 continued throughout my life. During the day digital clocks would read 11:11 (or even 1:11) when I glanced at them including the microwave in the kitchen or the clock in the car. I would receive emails and look at the date stamp, 11:11 again. It was no coincidence. By the time I was in my late twenties the occurrence was daily and sometimes many times a day. The ones would be on numberplates, phone numbers, everywhere I looked! I was starting to get very agitated and fearful of what these signs were. Every night I would wake up (or was woken up!) and the clock would read 11:11. I eventually told my husband who thought it was just random and because 11:11 looks unusual I was just remembering these number sequences whereas I was probably seeing other numbers equally as frequently. I knew this was not random. So to ease my worries he placed our bedroom tv remote in front of the alarm clock one night. This way, if I woke up at night I wouldn’t be able to see what time it was. At some stage that night we both woke with a fright as the tv remote
somehow flew across the room and landed with a crash against our cupboard.
A few days later I booked in to have my first psychic reading. She didn’t have an answer for me about 11:11 but remarked that my guides were happy I was finally having a reading so if seeing 11:11 was the push I needed to make this appointment, then maybe that was all it was about.
Although I didn’t get the answers I was seeking, the frequency of me seeing 11:11 did slow down after the reading. Maybe acknowledging that it was significant and taking a step towards understanding it, was all I needed for now.
There have been other times since then that the frequency of my 11 sightings increases and it always leads me to investigate some more what it might all mean. There are actually a lot of websites out there with theories about what seeing 11:11 means and a lot of people who see these numbers.
Ellen DeGeneres is another person who sees 11:11 and I heard she has named her recording company “eleveneleven” in recognition of this occurrence.
Many of the theories about 11:11 centre on it being an“awakening” sign or a “wake up call”. It is like when you see the number sequence it is a reminder from the universe to step up, get on with it, realise your life mission, face your fears and help humanity. It has also been described as a gateway or portal. The 11 looks like a doorway and if you choose to, the 11:11 invitation asks you to step through this doorway and take up the challenge of your life purpose.
My research into 11:11 also took me towards Numerology to help answer the question of the significance of 11. 11 is considered a master number (along with 22, the other master number). Master numbers carry the highest vibration of all the numbers and challenge us to master our own lives. In numerology we always look at the number when it is broken down into its single digit form. So, 11 would be broken down by adding the 1s together ( 1+1=2). So 11 also carries the vibration of the number 2, which is a very loving number (peace, love and harmony). Perhaps taking up the challenge to walk through the doorway of the double 11s will ultimately bring peace, love and
harmony, not only to the individual but also to the planet.
Numerology also explained that when people see number patterns they can look at their date of birth for explanations. I was born on 28th January 1972. 28 breaks down to the number 1 (2+8=10, 1+0=1). January is a 1 month. 1972 also breaks down to the number 1 (1+9+7+2=19, 1+9=10, 1+0=1). So I was born on a 1 day, in a 1 month, in a 1 year. Well, that might also explain why I see 1s everywhere!
Another explanation I found was: 11:11 – from duality into oneness. Folded it becomes 11. Folded again it becomes 1.
When I see 11:11 with regularity now, I know it means to me that I need to step up. That there are some things I am focusing on in my life which aren’t for my highest purpose. I gratefully accept the wakeup call and reminder now, instead of being fearful and running from it like I did in the past. It
also reminds me that I am not alone. These signs are from a place of unconditional love and support. So yes, step up, but with full support and therefore no fear.
I also believe there must be people who are seeing 12:12 with regularity now. As our planet ascends and shifts in energy we all have our individual roles to play which are all equally as important. We will all have our own wake up calls that will shift us onto our path. So whether you see 11s like me or not, you may still feel the significance of the upcoming date 11/11/11. Mark this occasion by stepping up and accepting the doorway that is open to you with full support from the universe.
I have just realised that today is my daughter’s 11thbirthday – significant maybe that I also woke up this morning deciding I needed to write this story to share with others!!
This is my spiritual truth- I trust it will help you find your own spiritual truth, whatever that may be.
Be Love, Be Loved, Be Loving…
I believe that knowing who we are at our unique soul level holds the key to living an authentic and joyful life. Once we know who we are, we can begin to BE who we are, and then BECOME who we were always destined to be.
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