To white light or not?
I get very passionate when I hear people talking about protecting themselves with white light. My views on this are quite different to the spiritual teachings that are mostly out there. So if you read this and it pushes your buttons, I apologise, but maybe consider what I am saying and see if you are willing to give it a go and maybe reframe slightly your intention when you next “white light” or use energetic protection for yourself.
For those of you who have not heard of white light as a form of protection I will briefly describe the process that is taught by many spiritual teachers. The idea is that if we imagine a bubble of white light around us it will act like a force field and reflect any energy that might penetrate our energetic field. Sounds simple and effective doesn’t it. Well it is, but it can be quite a disempowering act if not used with careful intent.
When I was at my lowest point with severe chronic fatigue syndrome, I could not be around people at all. I had complete sensory overload. This would even include watching TV, reading the newspaper and especially being around people – it would exhaust me! I have always been sensitive to energy and empathetic, but when I became ill, it was so severe I had to shut myself off from the world completely.
I was introduced to the white light technique as one of my first spiritual teachings. Every time I left my house I would imagine the white light shield around me to protect me from all the “harmful” energies in the world so I could function (barely) when I left my house. It was effective in the sense that it gave me something to focus on and was a tool of protection from all the overpowering energies around me.
Over time I found that when I was around people the white light shield was so effective that I couldn’t connect to people at all. If someone was talking with me I felt like a robot without feeling because I couldn’t pick up on any emotion in their voice and I really had trouble reading people in conversation. I just couldn’t engage with people anymore. I felt isolated. I couldn’t connect with the outside world. This is not what I wanted when I chose to white light myself.
So I decided to change my intention. I started by changing the colour of the protective shield around me to pink. Pink to me is the colour of love. So my intention was that anything that was vibrating at the same level as love could pass through my shield only. This worked slightly better for me.
It was around this time I discovered teachings about Archangel Michael. If you are not familiar, Archangel Michael is the angel who carries a big blue sword who you can call on for protection. I started calling on Archangel Michael constantly! Every day I was using his loving strong energy to protect me from people, situations and anything at all that I felt I needed protection from.
With my white/pink shield of light and Archangel Michael to protect me I found something very interesting starting to happen; I started becoming weaker and weaker. Even though my health was slowly starting to get better, my self confidence and trust in myself was getting weaker.
What I had done was use techniques and energetic beings who I considered to be outside of myself and more powerful than me to come and protect me. I gave my power away to these techniques and beings. I got weaker and weaker and therefore used the techniques more and more to protect me. I no longer had the belief in myself that I could protect myself. I saw the world as something that I needed protection from and I became more and more isolated and more and more fearful of the world. I was retreating and becoming afraid of everything.
Something had to change but how could I just let these techniques go? I wouldn’t survive in the world without them …. would I? I had become so reliant on these protection methods that I didn’t know how to function without them. But something had to change.
After realising what was happening to me and asking the question of myself, I got the wakeup call that I needed. I had an experience that taught me that I couldn’t call on an angel for help unless the energies of that angel were a part of me in the first place. I learned that I couldn’t call on an energy or “light” to surround me unless that energy was already a part of me.
What we all have the ability to do is to separate out what is inside of us in order for us to visualise, connect and understand it, and then it returns to where it came from – inside of us. We are all a part of this world and interconnected with everything. Every energy, emotion, thought and experience is part of the collective. Separating out these energies is how we function and learn and explore as human beings. We feel as though we are separate but we are not – it is just an illusion that is required to be a part of this three dimensional world.
When I realised that I was Archangel Michael and that I was the powerful protective light energy I visualised around me, everything shifted. Instead of believing that I was weak and incapable of protecting myself and using something that I perceived as being outside of myself and completely separate from me – I shifted my focus to using these techniques with the intent and belief that I was invoking what was already inside of me. I didn’t need to use these visualisations for very long at all after adopting this belief. They became organically me in every moment of my day.
I no longer had to call on these energies or visualise them, because I had adopted the belief that I was these energies, I was powerful, and I could protect myself and stand in my own energetic power at all times. I was no longer fearful of the world because I wasn’t constantly putting up barriers to protect me. I understood this concept mentally, but most importantly I could feel my inner-power start to rise.
By all means use energetic protection but feel it come from within you. Know that you are the same as this energy you call on to protect you. You could not connect with it, or visualise it, or feel its power, if you were not already a part of this energy.
I believe that knowing who we are at our unique soul level holds the key to living an authentic and joyful life. Once we know who we are, we can begin to BE who we are, and then BECOME who we were always destined to be.
Copyright 2023 Paula Vanderzon