I have had a crappy couple of months

I realised that I don't share a lot about the bad days.  I tend to keep that to myself for many reasons.  But it is time to come clean and open up about this.  I have some real shockers!  Many 'freak out' days where I worry and stress (usually about money) or spend days in physical pain.  Many days I just feel crappy and want to hide under the covers all day or lay on the couch feeling sorry for myself.

Yes, these days are getting less frequent and these moments move on fairly quickly as I am getting better at identifying what is going on and facing the fears I have.  My body rarely lets me get a way with anything anymore - it yells (pain!) very loudly if there is something I am trying to ignore.  You can't acknowledge something if you can't connect of feel it, so sometimes the physical pain can be an indicator of what to look for.  Last week I hurt my lower back very badly -  lots of pain.  I identified it as resistance.  I connected with the energy and what I was resisting - the decision and changes I had to make.  This helped shift the pain.... to my neck!!  Headaches and migraines!  Yay!!  Again more emotions I was avioding.  This time sadness.  In making the decisions and moving forward with the changes in my life I had to leave things behind.  I felt a sadness around this.  I realised that it wasn't actually bad to feel sad.   Sadness was just another way of expressing love for what was, grattitude for the joy I received in the past, but also a way to lovingly move forward to embrace the new.  I realised that this sadness could have prevented me from moving forward.  It could have signalled a stop sign - leaving the past behind is too sad to change!!  But being sad isn't bad - it is a way to express love - so the change doesn't have to be avoided just because you feel sad.

Change tests us!  Pushes us to our limits but if we don't change we suffer more in the long run.
Those crappy days don't last long anymore.  I love waking up to that feeling of pure exhilaration when I have moved through some change and brought in some new energy.  My vibration changes as a reward.

I get pushed to my limits but each time those limits expand and soon there will be no limits.  There will be no boundaries to change or what is possible.  So when those crappy days hit, don't be afraid.  Face them head on, know they are helping you grow towards your soul, and it will be worth it!

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