I woke this morning with a sense that everything had changed.
Last week I was questioning everything. It was a type of existential crisis…. Wondering what the point of life was, being around people who had a specific view of life and knowing that their view (which is the view of the majority) just wasn’t a good fit for me, but having no idea what was a good fit for me.
This type of self reflection and enquiry is not new for me, but it took on a new perspective, coupled with lower back pain which I have not experienced for many years, I knew my foundations were being rocked and challenged and a new way would become clear for me soon.
I connected to the flow of my life this morning. I usually see this as doors opening wide, and a stream or flow of energy that is MY life force, coming from MY soul and from MY source energy (which originates from the one source/flow that we all come from). Normally I feel this flow strongly and just work on opening the doors as wide as they can go so I am open to every opportunity that comes my way.
This morning was different. The doors opened wide but there was no flow of energy, no movement, just an empty space. I stayed in this space, watching and waiting, and after awhile a new “flow” or energy came from my heart space and started to flow into the space.
Everything has changed.
The way we thought our lives were playing out may no longer be the case. There were so many new “things” ahead (I can’t make out any details, just a sense that this is all brand new, and my mind won’t be able to comprehend or make any sense or have a frame of reference to the details), and there was a very powerful new flow, slow and strong. Just like Aladdin entering the Cave of Wonders for the first time, we could feel overwhelmed at what is presenting itself to us as it is the first time we have ever seen or felt anything like this before. But we will be guided to what we need to pick up and experience in this new world.
I feel that we just need to step onto our life raft that is floating in our flow, and let it carry us to the opportunities that await us. It is no use forcing or pushing or controlling anything in our life anymore. This might still work for some people but for many others who have opened their hearts to the higher energies and processed their denser vibrations/past events/emotions etc, there is a newness that we won’t be able to get our little logical minds around.
Maybe the last few weeks have been challenging for you as more past emotions came up to be processed, or maybe your goals just aren’t working out like you had planned, or maybe you just feel like you don’t fit in your current life anymore. This could be because this new energy or your life flow was starting to build.
I don’t know what happens next, but I feel comfortable knowing that we just have to have faith and trust in our OWN inner knowing to guide us through this change and into the next step.
It also feels exciting. Change can be scary, but this feels like the type of change we have all been waiting for (maybe even praying for). The type of change that is going to rewrite our futures and give our hearts everything they have every desired (note: this may be very different from what your minds have desired, feel the difference – the heart usually doesn’t want new cars, bigger houses or more money!). The heart usually wants peace, belonging, fulfillment, service, empowerment, freedom, flow, ease, joy etc. I think this will be easier for us to obtain now.
As with every change there will be steps forward and steps backwards, confusion, and some angst. Spend as much time as you can with your inner wisdom (meditate, deep breaths, relax, have fun, laugh and play) and you will feel that you are being guided to exactly where you need to be, when you need to be there in this new energy, new life flow, and new world.
I believe that knowing who we are at our unique soul level holds the key to living an authentic and joyful life. Once we know who we are, we can begin to BE who we are, and then BECOME who we were always destined to be.
Copyright 2023 Paula Vanderzon