Around the middle of 2012 various circumstances led me to give up the room lease where I had been teaching Reiki for a few years. I decided to take a couple of months off and reassess what my next step would be. I felt very strongly that I needed to stop teaching Reiki and explore some new healing/spiritual teachings. After 2 month off, the bills at home were piling up and I was feeling the pressure to get back to my business and help it grow. I asked for guidance and was clearly directed to go “back to work”, no this didn’t mean my healing business but my previous job as a Medical Researcher.
I have a background in Science and was working in Medical Research for 13 years before my diagnosis of CFS. I had now been out of this industry for 6 ½ years and never thought I would go back, in fact it seemed a world away and very much a part of my past. This soul guidance didn’t make any logical sense. How was a medical research job going to help me grow my healing business? How could I manage to be in such a different environment to the natural healing one that had helped me so much? Even though it made no sense, the pull was so strong that I contacted my old boss and he did in fact have a part time casual position for me. I started straight away…
It has been 7 months now and I am still working part time at the hospital. What an interesting journey it has been. I understand first-hand how soul guidance can make no logical sense and yet be so profound and change the course of your life so succinctly that it just can’t be ignored. I can’t share all the details just yet on how my life is changing direction, but it has certainly helped my healing business in so many ways.
The first few weeks back in this job were terribly difficult. So many emotions came up to the surface. I was back in the environment where I was when my life fell apart due to the CFS. I was doing something I never thought I would physically be able to do again. My confidence grew as one by one I acknowledged the emotions and fears. Relieving the financial pressure was also a huge help. I was getting more insights and confidence with my healing work and what direction I wanted to go with my teachings. It certainly was helping my business!
I don’t know how much longer I will stay in this job, I am sure the message will come when it is time to move on – if at all, but the insights and opportunity to put to practical use all the spiritual skills I have developed have been invaluable. It has helped ground me as well. Sometimes it is hard to remember what life is like out in the “real world” when your life revolves around healing centres and love and light!! But my intuition and connections to soul are like a secret weapon for work stress. I understand even more now the importance of being connected to spirit.
I will keep you posted on how this turns out, but all I can say is that when that soul guidance comes to you, no matter how 'out there' or illogical it seems, it might just work out!
I believe that knowing who we are at our unique soul level holds the key to living an authentic and joyful life. Once we know who we are, we can begin to BE who we are, and then BECOME who we were always destined to be.
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