I connected with a new spirit guide this week.  It has been a few years since this has happened, but I should have seen it coming as I only recently felt my last “teacher” and guide merging with me in a very physical and tangible way.

I see these spirit guides or teachers as higher dimensional aspects of me.  You could call them future selves (although all experiences of all incarnations are all happening at the same time) or higher selves or even just the wiser more experienced parts of me.

It is certainly much easier for our human minds to process the wisdom and guidance we receive from within us when we can separate this out into a “being” who we can call on and converse with.  It is easier for us to accept that we are learning something new and discovering more about ourselves and our abilities if we feel we are getting this wisdom from a teacher or source that is more knowlegable than us.  But as I teach in all my courses, I feel it is important to recognise that we are not giving our power away to these outside sources, they are not going to “save” us or “rescue” us from our miserable lives but instead they are collegues who are happy to guide us and teach us and pass on their wisdom and knowledge so we can best navigate our lives and live the most fulfilling version of our lives that we can.

You can read about my experiences with my previous guides/teachers on my blog.  I talk about the relationship I had with the Goddess Isis and what happened when she merged with me.
I also share a conversation I had with another aspect of me who I named Emerelda (her essence recently merged with my physical body).

When I first started doing Soul Writing I connected with a whole team of guides, angels, ascended masters and animal totems.  Each one taught me so much about myself.  They were able to reflect back to me what I couldn’t connect with inside of me.  Slowly but surely I got to know my true self through their guidance, their love and support, their characteristics and their wisdom.  Over time their individual voices and personalities merged into one voice, and when I would do soul writing it was always just a collective voice that would answer my questions (my soul voice).  I felt they had merged back into my essence or my soul, they were always a part of me and had now just gently stepped back into the background again.  If I think about them individually now, I can’t really connect with them like I used to, but I feel a warmth in my chest and a smile forms on my face.  It feels good to know they are still there, but I don’t feel like I NEED them to be standing around me directing or guiding my life anymore. 

As my awareness of self and my awareness of the ways of the universe has grown it seems I am ready for a new teacher.  Yes, I am teaching myself but this aspect of me wants to draw out these messages, these teachings and these new abilities that are starting to emerge.  By having this tangible guide I can more easily navigate these next steps, but I no longer feel as if I am giving my power away to a teacher or guru, as she is a part of me, so I am becoming more empowered and more comfortable with who I am.  If this teacher or guide was someone or something that was completely separate from me, I don’t think I would feel so comfortable, I would be a bit suspicious that they would try and control and manipulate me and the partnership would not be as successful.

Each aspect of me that has become my guide has taught me something different about myself and my purpose, and yet each teaching has built on the last.  This new information I am currently receiving is very different from the last and from what I thought my purpose was, but I can see how it is just another layer and it will build on what I already know and do.

I know my opinions about spirit guides and angels can challenge some people, but I wish to pass on what I learned from my own experiences, so that others do not have to go through the dis-empowerment that I did.  You can read more about these experiences here .  It really is quite natural to get new guides as we grow and evolve and our life circumstances change.

​A few weeks ago I posted an article about the energy of 2018 being about “movement”.
Since that post I have more information surfacing about this “movement” theme.

We have two parts to us that help us create our lives, the DOING and the BEING - some might call these the divine masculine and the divine feminine.  The divine masculine is what is driving this “movement” energy at the moment.  Yes, it is deep, divine and part of us but the force that it is pushing itself up into our lives is quite confusing because it feels like something we haven’t ever felt before, and yet it also feels so familiar - like a push to get going - but how and where do we satisfy this push to move.  

This inner masculine energy that is surfacing could feel like a giant insistent itch deep inside your body.  You can’t reach this itch to scratch it, but it feels like moving in any direction in all sorts of different ways does seem to help scratch this itch.  But it may not be the type of movement that you think it is.

If I use my caterpillar/butterfly analogy again, when a caterpillar moves it is moving in a completely different way to how a butterfly moves.  We can imagine that we are now a butterfly (completely different people/humans) and we feel this urge to move so we revert back to our old caterpillar habits (because it is all we have ever known) and look at ways to move and change things in our lives.  But we have different appendages now, different gifts, different abilities and a different viewpoint on the world because we are now capable of being butterflies.  So we can’t be using our caterpillar legs and muscles and mind to move forward in our lives anymore, we must use our brand new butterfly appendages, gifts and abilities to move.  This is brand new!!  And therefore very confusing.

There may be many opportunities presenting themselves at the moment – all of which seem and feel divinely guided, in the flow and on our path, but they may not be.  You may find yourself saying yes to these opportunities because they will fulfil this need within you of “movement” (they seem to scratch that itch) and be aligned with this fresh divine masculine energy that is coursing through your body at the moment.  This is OK, but if they fizz and burn out, then there may not be enough divine feminine creative power in alignment with these new opportunities to keep the momentum going and to actually manifest in your life.  The other problem is that you may also be limiting your view of what movement you can take in your life because you may be using your caterpillar abilities and not your butterfly abilities, which is why you are not gaining momentum.

You may also be saying yes to these new opportunities because they are wildly different to anything you have done before.  You can feel how different you are and with this push of energy telling you to get moving you are believing that to match your new butterfly abilities, you need to do something completely different to what you have ever done before.  This may be closer to what is in alignment with you but it may also not be quite right either.

The other problem with this scenario is that we are looking outside of us for these opportunities and these moments where we can express “movement”.  But the divine masculine/feminine energies rising are from within us and that is where this movement needs to come from also.  It is in the moment, divine directives or options to move.  It feels like an inner voice saying gently, do this now!  It is not planning and scheming and deciding, there is no thinking at all, it is just movement coming from the divine feminine energies of creation building up inside of us, which is how we instantly manifest through divinely guided masculine movement and action. 

A butterfly only needs to flap its wings once or twice to cover the distance that a caterpillar may have taken hours to travel using so much more energy.  We are now able to achieve so much more with so little movement and so little energy exertion.  There is no pushing, forcing, striving – just being in the present moment and taking action/movement when our soul nudges us to. 

We may be feeling this urge to move and do something new or different with our lives, but HOW we do this may be very different to how it looked and felt in the past.

If you feel as if you are coming out of the void or a period of “in-action” and you are feeling that very deep desire to now get moving, then you may now have to exercise your butterfly abilities and see how and where you can move, which is very different to what you are used to.

Don’t be too quick to jump into movement using your old habits and old abilities, instead focus on what could be brand new ways of moving forward and use your intuition or inner guidance to help you take those first baby steps (or flaps of your new wings) slowly but surely you will figure this new movement out.

This may be very subtle.  You may end up doing the same activities or jobs (from the outside looking in they seem the same) but with your new viewpoint you are moving subtly differently, with different awareness and different gifts.
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Imagine the movement of a butterfly vs a caterpillar.  The butterfly has very fluid movement, whereas the caterpillar is more slow, linear and has more difficulty in changing direction.  We could now be starting to fly like the butterfly but it may take some time and adjustment to get used to our new wings and way of moving.  We could even feel like we are still stationary and instead be choosing the highest flow possible in this moment and therefore just be moving upwards with our new wings before we can move forwards.  We may even need to fly around in circles for awhile until we get used to our new wings, before we can make any progress forward.

So much is different within us and that is starting to manifest in our outside lives – even if it is chaos and change – it is still different.  If we keep the highest and widest view of life we possibly can (from the viewpoint of our new butterfly capabilities) then we can see the bigger picture – above and beyond the chaos and change – and keep flapping our new wings ready to fluidly move where we need to be in every moment.

We may all need to be a little patient and just process and adjust to our new abilities and our new wings before we can make any progress moving forward just yet, but it does feel like March is going to give us opportunities to get some more clarity on just where we are headed.

​2018 has finally arrived!!  January felt like a transition month to me and now it really feels as if we have started the new year.  There have been many twists and turns and plot changes in January and so far in February, and it seems the motto of “expect the unexpected” is relevant.

If we can embrace the unknown, have no firm plans or goals then these twists and turns can be something to regard as curious and treat with wonder instead of fear and trepidation at something that was unexpected and unwanted. 

I really don’t know how this year will pan out but so far the energy of 2018 feel like it is the year of movement.  Not action, because to me action signifies goal setting and pushing forward, whereas the energy of 2018 feels like it needs to be just about movement, no pushing or forcing or directing or planning or goal setting, just present moment movement that is in the flow of life.  And much of this movement may be unexpected and catch you by surprise, but if you are in the flow of your own inner universe, this movement is always in the right direction.

It is interesting how years take on flavours or qualities of their own and how we go through cycles in our lives.  We don't always experience these energies or cycles in the same way at the same times and they seem to represent those phases of life we seem to go through with endings, cocooning and then new opportunities moving in.

Much like the butterfly, when a caterpillar ends its life it leaves behind all the caterpillar joys, wants and needs, even the day to day life that a caterpillar enjoys is no longer relevant, then it spends time cocooning, re-assessing, building up energy and resources, before emerging into the world as a butterfly, with an all new way of life and a new perspective of the world around it from a much higher vantage point that the caterpillar had before.  So even though the life of the caterpillar has ended, the life of the butterfly has just begun.  And the opportunities that the butterfly now has, weren’t even a possibility for the caterpillar to contemplate, in even its wildest dreams.  In fact, if a caterpillar ever dreamed of flying it may have even brought up many fears and been a terrifying concept, but as a butterfly flying is natural and exciting.

There certainly is a change in energy with the start of 2018 which brings us new perspectives and ways of seeing the world.  You might even feel like a butterfly yourself, emerging into a whole new world with a different awareness and perspective.  Something that you may never have considered before, suddenly seems possible.  Things you never thought you would consider doing again, suddenly seem interesting.  When we stop trying to control life and allow the opportunities to come to us that reflect our evolving perspectives and energy, then wonderful and unexpected things can happen. 

As we evolve and transform so does the world around us through our perspective and awareness.

Stay open and be excited for the new movements in your life, no matter which way they take you.

I always find December in the lead up to Christmas has the most powerful and profound energy shifts.  Personally, I have felt in my body the most intense energy changes, new energy moving in my body and old energy leaving in very dramatic ways.  This is probably because of a few different factors.  One, we have the solstice energies (21/22nd December) which are always powerful and there are gateways or portals that allow us to access new energies on 11:11 and 12:12.

Secondly our focus can shift from internal to external when we have so many things to accomplish for Christmas day (presents, shopping, cooking, organising for events), and so many parties and catch ups with friends, and we may not be integrating on a regular basis, so when we do have the time to focus inwards it can be a dramatic build up of energies that shift all of a sudden.

December is also a 3 month (1+2=3) which is about expression and creativity, and this could affect our throat and sacral chakras helping to clear these energy centres out.  Which is why people may seem to “push our buttons” through our expression, and we may feel inhibited by the structure and deadlines surrounding the events in December.  This can cause some energy to shift as we adjust and figure out the balance between our inner world and outer world.

The end of the year is also a time of reflection and readying ourselves for the new opportunities a new year can bring.  So we naturally adjust our energy to accommodate and prepare for these changes, and the old energy may leave in a big whoosh to clear the slate.

I remember many Christmas lead ups where my energy shifts would happen at the most in-opportune times.  For example a massive chest flattening, can’t breathe, crushing energy was leaving my body one Christmas morning.  Trying to dress, cook and get ready for Christmas lunch I had no choice but to lay on the floor and move this energy through my body.  Deep breaths and very loud sounds coming from deep within me were needed and the only way I could deal with this.  My family gave me the space I needed and about 20 minutes later after much breathwork and noise, I saw the most amazing colour I have ever seen start to flow through me.  I was dramatic and spectacular…. and then the traditions and schedule of Christmas day continued!

There were the other times when I was shifting energy big time, and needing to shop and cook, but all I could do was curl up in bed and assimilate changes through my body.  Things always got done in the end!

We really do have to honour our bodies and the processes, no matter what is going on in the outside world.  And when we do this, it is amazing how things flow and how easily everything gets done around us.

So if you are having a break and some relaxation time now, make the most of it, honour your body and whatever shifts and changes are going on with you as you prepare for the New year.  If you are busy, use your intuition and inner knowing to prioritise, let some things go if you have to and always put yourself and your needs first before anything else.  You can be of service to others much more efficiently if you are fully recharged and centred and aware of your own needs.
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​Happy New Year!

When we fail it is only because we were expecting a certain result.

Failure is something that we avoid.  This is often because we equate the feeling of failure with feeling unloved.  When we succeed we feel loved.  But are we looking outside of ourselves for this love and success, so we see failure as another reason not to love ourselves?

If we are to live in the present moment and not focus on the future or the past, then we cannot fail.  When we strive for goals that are specific in a future time then we expect these results to occur because we work towards them always with our eyes on the future.  Sometimes the hard work and single-minded determination can work to achieve these goals, but as the soul leads the way, this is not possible anymore.  We cannot override the soul with 3d grit and determination and control.

Instead the soul nudges us, the soul guides us to look at our outside life for clues to what still needs to processed and healed within us so that we can embody soul deeper and deeper.
Therefore these supposed failings, are just ways we can look within and love ourselves more.  Signposts as to not what we think our mind wants, but what our soul needs.  The soul thinks bigger than our human minds could ever hope to do.  What the soul needs is not always what the mind thinks it wants for this physical existence.

The challenge is to work with the goals, desires, opportunities without pushing, forcing or manipulating from a mind/ego perspective, but to feel our way forward with the wisdom of the higher mind urging us to stop or move forward, and ever trusting that the soul-purpose way of living is for our higher good in ways that our human mind has never experienced before and ways that we could never imagine in our wildest human dreams would be possible for us.

As more of our soul is allowed to enter our body and mingle with our choices, then our physical lives and realities will start to show the evidence of this new world and new human and new way of living.  It takes time, and there is always the pull and push to return to the ways of old as it is all around us, goading us and urging us to stay in this way of doing and thinking.

But if you are ready to try something new, just simply invite the wisdom of your soul and higher mind to lead you, to show you and inch you forward on this new path.  Remember that it may not be what your lower human mind thinks will happen as this mind is ground in habit and ritual and past actions and results, this is a whole new way that has never been tried or tested before.  Slowly and surely we can all live a soul inspired life in the flow of universal life and all be surprised and amazed by what this truly looks like in a physical life.   

​We will never “fail” again….