Back to normal.....

It is a phrase that we use often.  When things start going crazy, a bit unexpected, or we are enduring an event or issue, then we seem to crave and hope and wish for the time that "everything goes back to normal".  But this is actually an impossible wish - we can never go "back", and there isn't such as thing as "normal" in a healthy multi-dimensional life.

Instead, what we are really craving is a feeling of balance.

However, we confuse balance with control.  We feel that in the "normal" way of life, we have control over our lives.  When something large or unexpected happens we feel out of control and don't like the direction we are headed because it is full of the unknown and most of us fear the unknown because we don't know if we will have control over the outcome.

Normal = known = control = a feeling of balance

But we should be aiming for a change in perception to:

Trust in our life's flow and trust in the unknown (without controlling anything) = a feeling of balance

There is a part of us that likes to protect ourselves from perceived harm (some might call this the ego part of us).  When a situation with an unknown outcome comes into our lives, our protector/ego parts get very distressed, because it can't do its job as well as it normally does.  This causes stress as we fight with our life's flow to tighten the reigns and force life to give us more of what we already know works for us.  To be faced with the unknown is very tricky for most people.

​When we fight with (try to control) our life's flow then we cause our own suffering.  It is like trying to row a boat upstream; exhausting and pointless.

Everything happens FOR us and not TO us - this is what flow means - we are guided to/given situations in our life from our higher self aspects to expand our awareness of ourselves, to help us make new choices that we may never have made before, and this creates a new reality of our lives and of ourselves.  This is a life well lived.

It is why the unexpected events with the unknown outcomes make life so fulfilling.  We find out more about who we are through these events and this is the blessing of life.

The unexpected/unknown give us an opportunity to grow, learn, evolve, transform and embrace life in way that we have never been able to do before.

Most people will tell you that the most difficult and unexpected/unwanted events in their lives turned out to be turning points that ended up bringing them a future full of joy that they couldn't have imagined previously.  But the suffering through these unexpected/unwanted events (illness, divorce, retrenchment etc) is just that the unknown is not embraced as a wonderfully creative part of life.  If we work with the unknown we will find balance at every moment.  If we fight with the unknown then life will end up being a hot tricky and uncomfortable mess!

To work with the unknown requires a pretty big shift in mindset.  We have to let go of a logical way of thinking, stop thinking about what should or should not happen, stop labelling events as right or wrong.  This can challenge everything we previously believed about ourselves and our lives.  The past needs to stay in the past and we are given the opportunity to wipe the slate clean and make new choices in every moment - not based on previous outcomes - but based on how we feel inside in each and every moment.  We can then guide ourselves through the unknown by working with the unknown, embracing the unknown and recognising it for the creative force that it is in our lives.

It is not easy to change all of this over night, but if you are going through an unexpected life change or any kind of challenge, letting go of control and letting the unknown carry you forward can alter your experience of the event and lead you to the creative outcome that was waiting for you all along.

I have long spoken about how in my experience, putting up boundaries, barriers and protections in your life can be a disempowering practice.

I know this goes against most spiritual teachings which teach that protecting your energy and placing boundaries is a good thing, and sometimes for a short term it can be necessary, but long term it is not healthy and does not allow you to evolve and transform.

When you feel that you need to place boundaries around you and “protect” yourself from what you perceive as harmful, you are making these choices from a fear based perspective.  And yes, in the 3D world there are things that are harmful.  A more empowering practice is to place your focus inwards.  To only concern yourself with your own energy, your own needs, your own wants and desires, from a divine self-love perspective.  This is not selfish when perceived from a space of self love and nurture.  Because when our needs are met from a deep divine place, then everyone else's needs around us can also be met.  When we are respectful of our own needs then we are automatically respectful of the needs of others, and this creates a wonderful loving society to exist in.

A lot of inner work needs to be practiced before you can then project this deep self reflection out into the world.  But when you are able to do this you no longer need protection from anything.

This is because two things seem to happen. 

You are so aware of your own energy and your own desires and needs that you start to create your own reality from this space of deeply knowing who you are.  Some may call this New Earth or 5D consciousness – and in this space there is nothing harmful and nothing that you need protect yourself from.

The second thing is that you are so connected to the real authentic inner you (soul/higher self) that you literally shine an energy so strong from you, out into the world that nothing can penetrate this to convince you that you are less than you know yourself to be.

These are practices and ways that we can all aim for.  It takes a lot of self reflection and breaking of old habits and trusting in your divine inner self and soul searching to be able to reach this state, but it is possible.  Just knowing what to aim for can pull us all towards living life this way.  When we each create this new reality within us, it becomes a reality outside of us as well.  

It is much more fun to live with many, ever changing truths than with one or two fixed beliefs.
When we have new experiences or receive new information then our truth can change.  When we have beliefs, they do not change.  You can interchange the words/meanings of truth and belief as you wish, but I will explain the words as I understand them.

We are empowered when we live by our truth, we are disempowered when we live by our beliefs (usually because our beliefs have been given to us and not developed by us).
Our individual truths will always be exactly that, individual.  While we may share some similarities with others, no one will ever see the world quite like us, through the lens of our unique truth.  When we share our truth with others they can try out our truth, in a way to help them discover their own truth.

Beliefs however are rigid and are either followed or they are not.

Truth gives our lives flexibility and allow us to evolve and grow.

Your truth grows and changes, and your truth about events that happened in your past also grows and changes.  If you imagine a significant event from your past, you may see it now with different eyes, because the experiences you have had since, and your understanding of life have all added to your unique ways of understanding your own truth.  You may have also processed many emotions and feelings that were attached to these significant events, which again enable you to see the even with fresh new eyes and understanding and therefore with a new truth.

If we stay fixed and rigid with our beliefs and our truths about ourselves and our world, then we stay stuck in old earth.  We are all evolving and new earth is ready for us to anchor to, but we can’t do this if we are still anchored to old earth via our truths and beliefs.

It is time to throw away everything you ever thought and believed in, and leave a door open for new truths to fill you, to lead you, to guide you and to evolve within you. 

If you are going through a stage of not really knowing who you are or what you want, then this is great, as you are letting go of your old fixed beliefs about yourself and starting to form new truths (hopefully based on the  new earth energies).  It may take awhile for the new truths to start to form but just adopt the truth that you are evolving, that you are moving towards something new, that you are OK, and that you are not alone in this.
 
Since I started my healing and teaching work many years ago my personal truths have undergone many evolutions.  I stopped teaching Reiki for awhile because my new truths did not match what I was/had been teaching.  I then came back to teaching after a break once I could integrate the new information and new truths I had inside of me.  I have not taught for a couple of years, again, having trouble teaching a modality that did not match my inner truth anymore.  It is very disconcerting when the “rules” change.  But I am fluid in my flow to allow my truth to constantly evolve as my understandings and experiences also evolve.  Holding on to our old truths just because they support an income or way of life that we have grown accustomed to is not very healthy in the long term.  As my new truths surface and I find they don’t fit into the model of the business I have created, then services I offer to others need to evolve and grow with me.  Here are some examples of how my truths have changed lately:

• I can’t seem to teach reiki anymore because I do not believe that energy (or anything) should be channeled or brought in from outside of us.  It all comes from within us.  However I respect that channeling from outside of us is a necessary step before we are able to channel from within.
• Someone who is sensitive to energy or an empath is not really feeling stuff from other people, they are feeling their own inner stuff that is coming to the surface of their awareness to be processed (it may be triggered by outside events/people, but it belongs wholly to the person).  This truth is still developing but my model and understanding of what empaths and energetically sensitive do, is starting to change because it does not fit in with my other new truths about energy.
• Entity attachments aren’t something that come from outside of us, they are energies and thoughts that we create from within us, we feed them energy through our repeated thoughts and actions, and then they are hard to shift and continue to cause repeated patterns and behaviors.
• Spirit guides, angels etc are created by us, and come from within us.  They are not outside forces that guide our life.  We guide our own life and talk to “ourselves” when we receive guidance.  This goes for God. Source and Creator energies as well, these are inside of us, we are an aspect of source energy, we are the same and cannot see ourselves as different or separate any more.
• I am not part of THE universe out there, I am part of MY universe which lives inside of me.  By being the center of my universe I create my outer reality, and everything that happens in my life is therefore happening FOR me, not TO me.
  
  

My new truths do affect my teaching and client work but I am finding that I am able to bring in the new terminology into client sessions in a way that individuals can understand.  I can still “clear” energies but with the understanding that each person creates them through free will and choice, and when they no longer want these energies or experiences then it is simple to wipe the energy clean and start with fresh choices.  The techniques don’t change much but the intent and understanding do.

I still do hands-on healing work, but it is all heart centred (where my universe is).  By introducing or showing my inner universe to others, it can trigger many vibrational changes in them and we can share information at much higher levels which changes the way healing works. 

By staying in and living in my universe, it allows others to strengthen their own universes and live in integrity according to theirs.  When we start interfering with each others universes (choices etc) then things get messy.  We can overlap for joint endeavors in honest, unique and authentic ways, but ultimately everyone else benefits when we do what is best for us and our own universe. 

When thoughts start spiraling in my head, when emotions come up, I look at these with the awareness that I created these reactions (someone else didn’t cause them or make me angry, sad etc). While others may have given me the gift of seeing what is inside of my human self, they are entirely mine to own and to process.  Just by being aware and giving a different perspective view to these feelings, thoughts and emotions they are easily processed.  But if I still believed they were the other persons fault, and that this negative circumstance was happening TO me (rather than FOR me) then it is almost impossible to process and integrate these energies within me and then move on.  When I have processed these old thoughts and emotions I have more room for my inner universe to expand and grow within me, filling all parts of my physical body.  I can integrate with my higher selves (future selves) and my soul essence (my unique aspect of source) and evolve and transform my life. By being too rigid in beliefs and not being willing to change and evolve, this transformation cannot take place.

As we let our truths become fluid and ever changing, we dissolve our ego selves, because we don't have to justify or prove or defend what we believe, do or say.  We are willing to look within and make choices based on what feels best for us in each moment, based on our own unique truth in that moment and we become willing to course correct and make different choices at any time, because the choices were not made from a rigid belief in the first place.

I connected with a new spirit guide this week.  It has been a few years since this has happened, but I should have seen it coming as I only recently felt my last “teacher” and guide merging with me in a very physical and tangible way.

I see these spirit guides or teachers as higher dimensional aspects of me.  You could call them future selves (although all experiences of all incarnations are all happening at the same time) or higher selves or even just the wiser more experienced parts of me.

It is certainly much easier for our human minds to process the wisdom and guidance we receive from within us when we can separate this out into a “being” who we can call on and converse with.  It is easier for us to accept that we are learning something new and discovering more about ourselves and our abilities if we feel we are getting this wisdom from a teacher or source that is more knowlegable than us.  But as I teach in all my courses, I feel it is important to recognise that we are not giving our power away to these outside sources, they are not going to “save” us or “rescue” us from our miserable lives but instead they are collegues who are happy to guide us and teach us and pass on their wisdom and knowledge so we can best navigate our lives and live the most fulfilling version of our lives that we can.

You can read about my experiences with my previous guides/teachers on my blog.  I talk about the relationship I had with the Goddess Isis and what happened when she merged with me.
I also share a conversation I had with another aspect of me who I named Emerelda (her essence recently merged with my physical body).

When I first started doing Soul Writing I connected with a whole team of guides, angels, ascended masters and animal totems.  Each one taught me so much about myself.  They were able to reflect back to me what I couldn’t connect with inside of me.  Slowly but surely I got to know my true self through their guidance, their love and support, their characteristics and their wisdom.  Over time their individual voices and personalities merged into one voice, and when I would do soul writing it was always just a collective voice that would answer my questions (my soul voice).  I felt they had merged back into my essence or my soul, they were always a part of me and had now just gently stepped back into the background again.  If I think about them individually now, I can’t really connect with them like I used to, but I feel a warmth in my chest and a smile forms on my face.  It feels good to know they are still there, but I don’t feel like I NEED them to be standing around me directing or guiding my life anymore. 

As my awareness of self and my awareness of the ways of the universe has grown it seems I am ready for a new teacher.  Yes, I am teaching myself but this aspect of me wants to draw out these messages, these teachings and these new abilities that are starting to emerge.  By having this tangible guide I can more easily navigate these next steps, but I no longer feel as if I am giving my power away to a teacher or guru, as she is a part of me, so I am becoming more empowered and more comfortable with who I am.  If this teacher or guide was someone or something that was completely separate from me, I don’t think I would feel so comfortable, I would be a bit suspicious that they would try and control and manipulate me and the partnership would not be as successful.

Each aspect of me that has become my guide has taught me something different about myself and my purpose, and yet each teaching has built on the last.  This new information I am currently receiving is very different from the last and from what I thought my purpose was, but I can see how it is just another layer and it will build on what I already know and do.

I know my opinions about spirit guides and angels can challenge some people, but I wish to pass on what I learned from my own experiences, so that others do not have to go through the dis-empowerment that I did.  You can read more about these experiences here .  It really is quite natural to get new guides as we grow and evolve and our life circumstances change.